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here's where to go if you want the long boring life story (<-- not active yet, it's a long life to write about.)

Tiny bit updated May 07

I am female if the photos didn't tip you off (Don't worry, it's human nature to go to the pictures first, I do it myself). Please call me Discord. I was born April 22, 1973 (it was Easter actually, but my family is Jewish, so it was no big deal), got my first period on Christmas morning, I'm sure you all needed to know that. Lived in Southfield, a suburb of Detroit, Michigan till I was 8, then lived in New Jersey. I now reside there, but very close to New York City. I graduated from Deleware Valley College in 1995 with a 4 year B.A. in Equine Business (that means horsies), but now I'm a web programmer by trade, currently doing the 9-5 thing at a great web developing and more company where they pay us to drink beer, eat donuts and play air hockey. Oh, and we make some web sites from time to time.

Yeah, sure, I'm gothic, morbid, pixie, vampy, glittery. I don't really fit in to any one classification (who really does?), I am just me, part of the reason I created the Neitherland. I try live a pretty laid back life, but in close personal relationships, I am extremely sensitive and skittish, I guess I have just scribed why most of my relationships have failed. I find it hard to trust anyone, I really want to trust, but it's always let me down. I don't throw the world love around, I've said it to very few, and when it is said, I'm over the flighty factor of that particular relationship. I just want someone to say to me they'll always be there when I wake and actually do it. (Yes that is from Blind Melon's "No Rain") And if anyone just e mails me and says that after reading this I will kick them. ;-). Does this make me a hopeless romantic?

The one thing I have never lost my passion for is books. I have hundreds, and I want more. I am a book Greek. I love the Online Books Page, it has over 7,000 books in a searchable archive(including Grimm's Fairy Tales, The Tao De Ching, and The Faerie Queen). <drool> The library was one of my favorite places all my life growing up too. There is an episode of the Simpsons where Lisa tries to avoid the library so she can be "cool" and hang with the new cool kids she met, she's walking by and it is just calling her. I can relate. Sad isn't it? I should really just own a book shop (hey, maybe I could get use of my small business degree after all!), then I will have all the books I want right there at my fingertips.

First computer: Apple IIc 1984. My brother got this as a 14th birthday present and that is all we had till around 1993 when my dad bought a crappy compaq pressario one piece. No, we didn't use the Apple all that time, it sat collecting dust for a lot of years, then it found it's way to its box before we dontated it away in the late 1990s. I used to play that miner 49er game, tapper, and a few others we had. Very few. When the drive couldn't read a disk right or no disk was there and it wanted to read one it made this horrible noise. My dad got this educational game as a sample at some toy thing where you are at a party and you learn to drink slow enough to not die. Yeah right! Of course I made it slam like 10 drinks right away, 1 slice of pizza, and the stupid game had a disk error on it and you could only play like 5 rounds anyway.

Current computer: Self built, more details here.

Stuff I like: pretty goth boys, black stuff, satin, compliments, Jane's Addiction, Bjork, Inkubus Sukkubus, dancing, androgyny, spirituality, faeries, soft little kitties to squeeze and pet, honesty, music, vampires, nature, action figures, glitter, balance.

Stuff I don't like: Material things, slobs, name droppers, people who care about image and fame, pretentiousness, slackers, racism, the growing population of humans on the planet, body hair on boys or girls, yes that means ALL of it should be shaved. Hair only belongs on the top of the head.

Love: Rare but possible, when I feel it is the only time I'm truly fully happy, but beware, it causes weakness.

Sex: I don't believe in casual sex anymore. Well.. I believe in it. It's just not my thing currently. By that I mean, I won't sleep with someone who I don't know enough to respect them in some way. I can't be only sexually attracted to someone. Even if it's still sex on a friendship level, I have to respect them as a person.

Abortion/Animal Rights: Abortion is the humane putting to sleep of a human baby that otherwise might live a horrible life with parents that don't want it, can't afford it, will treat it badly, or sell it to slavery. The very people who riot against a woman's right to choose are for slaughtering animals for fur, keeping them in horrible conditions, ripping beaks off chickens, eating their flesh. So tell me again I'm a monster because I think an unwanted child should be put out of its misery before it starts.

People who I've let get pretty close to me and haven't let me down yet: Niko, Nick Carroway, my Mom & Dad, my Brother & the rest of my family.

People I've lost all touch with and wish I could find them: Chrissy & Emily & Kate from Del Val, Julie Kwon a best friend when I was little in MI, Carmen Wong who I went to school with since like 7th grade and ran into in Penn Station NYC around 1995 once.